Feeling Bad and Guilty

Some what, I do feel that I shouldn't have brought up the issue with her despite knowing that I won't change the way she is. And that is what has happened last night over the phone with her. It was some sort of a small argument which led to some displeasure mainly because of my misunderstanding and probably my EGO. Yes every man in the world has some sort of ego but many of them all have an extremely high ego which leads to displeasure in one's eyes.

That is me... unfortunately... and undoubtedly, it has happened time and again with me and my girl.

Maybe it's because I am just being too overprotective over her and worrying too much for her and that has led to her being sort of unhappy with me being like that. Besides that fact, I have argued with her over the same time and I think this is the third of fourth time and YES the very last time I am going to harp on it.

Well probably she hasn't got to know that being so ever willing to take up responsibilities (yes I know it's a good thing but however a bad thing at the same time) someday people would just climb over her head because they are pretty sure she won't say "no" to them. Oh well, I have said once and probably a couple of times,

"Someday all these will all fall apart right before your eyes."

And yes I would be sure I would be seeing it someday soon. (Being mean am I not? But it's a fact. Things may go smoothly now and for the time being, but someday soon everything will just fall apart like the dominoes.)

Oh well I do recall in which after every time I did have an argument with her, I do say I am sorry for being that way. But no matter what I sure hope that whatever I've told her in the form of and advice, she would take heed and probably someday she would know what I have always been telling her and warning her about. Who wants to see their other half in pain after seeing mass destruction in their work?

I tell myself this after every argument. "In order to change someone, the change must come from oneself first."