Needed but Hated

Things has gotten rougher as the days went by...

The rain has just pour again and my emotions did ran a little wild again. Some tears did roll down my cheeks once again. But the fact is even if I cry, could anyone feel the pain I am going through? Could anyone hear me crying?

Yes all my friends do tell me the same thing. 'You need sometime'

Yes I know! I need time to myself and I need it more to think about every other thing about where has all these gone wrong, what wrong steps I took, what mistakes I've done and so on and so forth.

As much as I need all this time, I hate it at at the same moment. I hate the ugly moments. I hate the loneliness. I hate the emptiness. I hate to cry so much about it.