Study... Crisis...

Lately, or perhaps since my second trimester in UNITEN has been a very rough semester for me and my performance and yes, it has finally taken a toll on me, my mental strength and emotional strength. My academic wasn't as great and it was as promising as I always thought it would be. Apparently, and actually in fact, I called up my parents in the middle of one fine evening to talk about it and my father did say,

"Lets discuss it on Friday when you come back and not on the phone."

So there it was. After a pretty long discussion, there were pointer given by my father towards my solution and towards where I wanna put my life into heading.

But still, there are multiple question marks in and above my head. A question of responsibility, a question of fate, a question of hope and a more importantly, a question of my future in next 4 years and beyond.

Question marks are lying all over me, inside and outside of me and I am pretty sure it's written all over my face as such I am confused with what I am planning to do on my next course of actions.

Where does my interest lie? What would be in the next 4 years? Where would I end up in the next 4 years? Am I going to give up on my studies in engineering? Am I fit to be in this field? Do I stand a chance to be doing something that is related to science so much so I find it difficult to cope? If I leave this university, where would I go? What would I study?

All the above are the question marks in my head now. I have been having a few sleepless nights because of this. But nevertheless, within this grace period of 3 months prior to the end of my final foundation trimester, I have to decide where I wanna land myself in in the near future, what I want to do in the near future and most importantly, find my ultimate interest.