Beyond Infinity
8:19 PM
I started off this morning pretty early or rather at a usual time when I have my days off from classes. 10am to be exact.
The whole morning, afternoon till this evening I was out with 2 other friends. First thing we had was an early lunch at Taman Tatton View, Cheras. Following that, we headed off to Giant Hypermarket in Taman Connaught which was just opposite where we had our lunch. After a long walk along every aisle in the hypermarket to shop for the groceries we wanted, we were soon on our way to the Sepang International Circuit, SIC. Actually the trip was was just a random trip for me to get to know how to get into the SIC area for the coming Formula 1 season.
I really felt thankful for going to SIC today as we were pretty surprise to know that there's a MotoGP test session going on inside the circuit which include quite a few teams namely the Fiat Yamaha team and Ducati Marlboro just to name a few.
In fact it was a pleasant experience to be at the circuit watching the racers testing out their bikes. A first hand experience.
However, something which caught my sight kinda saddened me as it reminded me of someone. Yes, from afar, the features were exactly the same, the skin tonne, the height, the dressing, the hair and the way she sits. Oh forget about it anyway... I just made me feel sad and lost at that moment because every little bit of that lady reminds me of her.
Never mind that fact, here are some pictures I captured as I was there, some may not be as clear because it was taken using my 3.2mp camera not a DSLR and partly blur due to the zoom;
*The pictures will be uploaded tomorrow* Connection to internet is terrible in my apartment.*
3:45 PM
I feel very much appreciated by certain friends and I appreciate them for being caring for me. Yes, although my circle of friends are certainly limited, it's what make me feel connected and closed to them.
I recently got to know a new friend and in a matter or days or perhaps weeks, I've gotten to know her much better and appreciate that there's an extra someone out there that cares for me although I've lost one. Yes, thank you very my my dear.
However there are a certain group of my extended circle of friends just rubbish and that is how I label them. RUBBISH. People that I appreciate them as friends but they don't even acknowledge my presence and appreciate me as a friend.
3:32 PM
Sometime thoughts just go around my head about power and the influential power I have.
Since my days in school be it primary or secondary and even in university life, I do have people (friends) calling me tai lo, tai kor, and all those. However, I certainly don't think I am a powerful person when it comes to dealing people and problem.
On the other hand, I kind of feel that, I seem to have the influential powers to influence people around me to do certain things and to follow certain things. Being powerful isn't everything but rather, having the influential powers and also being powerful icon is crucial.
Does it mean that being influential makes a good leader?
A good leader by actions and not only words?
9:09 PM
I am wondering and yes I do really think about it.
Yes what is it you maybe asking. What else do you think I am thinking about? Perhaps you've already thought about what I am thinking about anyway for now.
It's been so many years already since the very first time I got to know her back in lower secondary school and it didn't take me long to notice that she's such a nice girl and so easy to approach her in every way possible. Somehow, it has also been years already that I've told her I really like her and till today, I still do really like her but how far can this feeling go? I don't know... Neither does she knows I think. *wink*
Leave aside all the differences between me and her. Leave aside those things I know which she has told me about. Also leave aside what kind of family background she has. Sometimes, all these differences are things that brings two people together for good and for bad. From the day I knew her, I've never even thought of the difference in our family background. To me those aren't important. What is most important is the feelings.
Today, I feel like I've given her the most I could give her as to-date. I passed my 5610XM to her and for her to use for the meantime while she gathers enough money to get a new phone. I didn't only gave her the handset but actually the entire complete box as how the phone first came into my hands 2 years ago. It's just a sacrifice I never knew I would be able to give. All I had in mind was trust in her as she will take good care of that phone for as long as she is using it before she returns it back to me.
Sacrificial...
I am just hoping that someday, somehow and somewhere a miracle will happen which will bring us both together. As long as a chance is given, this hope of mine will continue to light up. It's just a matter or time when something will finally come up and be that miracle.
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